❤️😍 GRATITUDE FOR WHAT I DO 😍❤️

I’ve given a session yesterday evening. Then I sat here crying, feeling grateful for the sessions I offer.

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We have been working together for around 14 months, the longest time period I’ve been working with someone 1-1. She’s one of my first clients. I’ve seen her grow into the courageous, powerful woman she became today.

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Her dream is to go traveling all around the world going on adventures, run a wellbeing hostel surrounded by nature, write inspiring short stories. I had a feeling she was going to take off to travel in 5-6 months. Yesterday she told me she’s going real soon. 

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We looked at what she created here in London and what she learnt, truly celebrated all that she became and felt into what her next chapter is going to be about. I knew the session we did yesterday was going to happen soon but I felt super proud of her that it was now. 

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I cried. I was a bit hesitant to cry in a session thinking it’s a session, I’m holding space etc then I went, ‘Fuck it, this is so beautiful.’ 😍

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She cried as well and we just looked at each other on Skype. It felt like a beautiful, honouring completion. I thanked her for the gift of serving her. I think you can always grow, go to the next level and have someone who has your back all along. You don’t have to do it alone. With her, she came to a point she has everything she needs and she’s good to go.

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I have moments where I doubt what I do. I sit here thinking, ‘What am I doing?’, ‘Why am I putting myself through this?’, ‘Is it worth all this?’. I love it, but some days are just not easy. Some days, I want to just stop everything and not do anymore sessions. Then I show up for the next session. I’ve given something around 250 sessions in the last year and rescheduled maybe 2-3 from my part.

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I think that’s one thing I’m really good at. I always show up even if I’m dying inside. I don’t cancel things because I’m not feeling like it. It’s great when I’m feeling happy and joyful. But it’s not as easy when I’ve just broken up with my partner the day before. It’s not easy when all I want to do is stay in bed and not do anything that day but I have 3 sessions booked for the day. So I get up. 

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Running your coaching business is not just giving sessions. It’s booking in the sessions, rescheduling if someone forgets a session, following up with people, making calls, replying emails, sending invoice, sending session notes (I do anyway). And organising your life on top of that so you don’t become a workaholic. Most days I do it with joy and I love it. But some days I don’t have patience or resilience for any of that.

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Yesterday was a day where I felt grateful for carrying on no matter how hard it got sometimes. I felt deep respect for myself for persisting.

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Nothing excites me more than seeing someone I work with physically making their dreams their reality... And I feel grateful I’m able to do that 💙

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Today I’m grateful for myself for choosing to carry on following my truth no matter how hard it gets. The reward is seeing others feeling whole and confident🌹

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I feel like there’s a shame around coaches, guides, healers, facilitators around not feeling like serving, that what you’re doing is sacred and you need to appreciate that you’re doing it. It’s absolutely natural if you’re not feeling your usual serving vibes. You’re human and you’re not meant to be linear and motivated every day. Just show up anyway because someone needs it ✨

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So much has been going on for me recently, will share them one post at a time 🙏🏼

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Wishing you a beautiful weekend 😍

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Loads of love 💛

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