❌ WHEN THINGS DON’T GO AS “PLANNED” ❌

Yesterday I held a breathwork journey for 13 beautiful people ✨

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Something happened that just showed me how things can not go to plan but you can still show up and deliver.
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There was an issue with the speaker. After several attempts between different options, it basically didn’t work.
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So my Ego was telling me:
.💩 That’s it, you don’t have music. You can’t hold this journey now.💩 See, you fcked it up. You should stop doing this all together.
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The initial emotions I felt were shame and anxiety. I could feel my body starting to go into freeze, close down and give up.
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Because it wasn’t what I “planned”, in that moment, my Ego instantly classified that as - failure. I often experience shame with that. And shame usually tells me to hide and stop doing whatever I set out to do.
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If I stop, then I’ll avoid all chances of future failing. That’s how sneaky Ego can be.
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I had two options:
.1️⃣ I could hold onto how it didn’t go as it “should” wallowing in shame and sadness.
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OR
.2️⃣ I could accept the reality as it is and actually get on with the solution.
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The more I focused on the PROBLEM, I wasn’t actually going towards the SOLUTION. I was moving away from it. There was a point where focusing on fixing the speaker (process) was actually a distraction from delivering the breathwork journey (end result).
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The actual reality was that the CONDITIONS I normally have were just not there. It doesn’t mean my END RESULT of facilitating a transformational and powerful breathwork journey can’t be there.
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So I let go of the whole speaker shit show and focused on facilitating the breathwork journey.
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Here is the feedback from yesterday👇🏼
.✨ “The beginning of a voyage of discovering ‘in’ my body.”✨ “I felt such a deep sense of contentment after the session.”✨ “Freeing, calming.”✨ “Intense, powerful.”
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As much as I grow, and beautiful creations come to life, my Ego comes up proportionally to the greatness of the creation. And I choose to be real and honest about it.
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My Ego is not going anywhere, it’s always there and continue to be there. But I’m aware of what it’s trying to do and I know I’m the decision maker here. So are you 🔥
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There are days when everything’s flowing, connected and amazing. Then there are days where things don’t go as planned. These are the days you learn the most about yourself. And you show up anyway, because it’s a commitment to yourself and your mission. I commit to show up no matter what 🙏🏼
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So my question to you is:
.✨ Where are you in your life, are you focusing on the problem and not the solution?
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It takes making one choice to change your whole reality 🔥
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The next breathwork journey is on the 20th March Friday, in East London, Haggerston, 6:30pm. Come join!
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Link is below ✨
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https://www.brownpapertickets.com/event/4533366
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Love you 💛
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